A midlife, male made this statement.

“I am sorry for what I did to me.”

Anonymous 

What a deeply, insightful confession.  At first glance, it sounds unusual. But the more you think about it, the more meaning it carries. Here are a few possibilities.

I avoided me.

(I avoided doing my emotional growth work.)

I ignored me.

(When I was hurting in deep places I avoided dealing with it.)

I numbed me.

(It was easier the use a substance or distraction to numb myself instead of learning myself.)

I ran away from me.

(Part of me was quietly, crying out for help while another part kept running.)

I overdeveloped half of me and underdeveloped the other half.

(I became successful in some areas while remaining emotionally immature in others. )

I lied to me.

(When conflict exposed my weakness I told myself it didn’t matter.)

I never looked deep into my own soul.

(I spent my whole life making surface adjustments while ignoring the deeper work.)

Close-

The good news is that it is never too late to turn toward yourself with honesty, invite God into your deepest places, and begin the work of becoming whole.

Prayer-

Father, thank you for wisdom and insight. Bless my new journey. Amen

Scripture-

“Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”   Psalm 139:23–24 (NIV)