Letting someone down is the worst feeling. It’s failure. It reminds me of being a disappointment. I hate failing and letting others down. That’s when I send myself to the pit.

Here is what happens in the pit:

• I do negative self talk.
• Swirl in negativity.
• See the worst in myself.
• I become self absorbed.
• Repeat- I deserve to be punished.
• Believe- I should be treated badly.
• Remind myself that I always fail and end up in the pit.
• Remember how it feels to be neglected.
• Feel the pain of being forgotten.
• I’ve never had a voice except one for self condemnation.
• Repeating I am a screw up is always hard to hear.
• I hate failing and remembering I am just a big mistake.

Summary

I hate it when I fail and send myself to the pit.

Prayer

Father, through my eyes the pain of failing is overwhelming. I zone out and wade into the pit. Help me be transformed into your spiritual truths. Help me see myself through your eyes. I am chosen, forgiven, and redeemed. Amen.

Bible Connection

The woman caught in the act of adultery.
Jesus said.
Where are your accusers?
Has no one condemned you?
Neither do I condemn you.
John 8:1-11
There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
Rom. 8:1
(No more pit dwelling)