What if you were never loved well as a child? As a result, you lived a life of emotional confusion. And now, even in adulthood, you still struggle.

Home was full of chaos. You rarely felt peaceful. Mom had issues and struggled. Dad was emotionally detached. You lived with a question deep inside: Am I wanted?

Fear grew large inside of you. It whispered that you were an imposter. No one wants you. And sometimes you don’t even want you. Even today it’s hard to trust people. So you protect yourself.

You felt alone. No one ever wanted to know you. You hate screwing up. It feels like proof that you are a disappointment. You lived ignored.  Lonely. There was little encouragement. So you became skilled at self-criticism.

Then one day you begin to see yourself more clearly. This was me. I was rarely picked. No one chose me. Sometimes I wanted to run away. But… run where?

Fear followed me everywhere. It was a terrible companion. I carried a lot of doubt. And its cousin—restlessness. Friends became my teachers. But young, confused friends make bad teachers.

Hiding, pretending and escaping became my life skills.

Close:

Finding an emotional trainer and a spiritual leader are life-changing. Being kind to myself is a good starting place.

Prayer:

Father, will You be my Savior, my guide, and my trainer? Jesus, I claim Your promises. Holy Spirit, please lead. I will follow. Amen.

Scripture:

“His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness … 2 Pet. 1:3  NIV